I know, I know, I'm one of those people. But I really am curious. Back when I was diagnoses with Major Depressive Disorder, severe anxiety, and the night I was seriously considering suicide, my roommate got me to watch Evangelion... I remember thinking, "sure, the hell, this will be the last thing I watch."
I finished it all that night. The whole show spoke to me... It was like Hidiako Anno made the damn show for me... it was like... he knew me. The music, the feeling, everything. It convinced me I wasn't alone, and that I should go to therapy...
I know I'm being very dramatic, and probably very silly. But I'm seriously wondering if Eva helped anybody else in a bad time. If so, what was your experience? I'd love to know.
For me, it really help me with some... struggles.
I was able to see more of the weak and dark side of humanity, and by that, my own humanity.
But something interesting happened to me, it was:
At first, Evangelion seemed too complex and too extreme to me... but after getting older and being more mature... I just realized that Evangelion its actually more easy to understand.
I can understand Shinji (an overhated character by the fandom and many otakus)... because he represents the weakness and the scary side to use an Eva.
Same goes to Asuka... she was just a human that suffered as Shinji or Misato did it.
I'm not able to remember everything right now hahaha
Have a good day/night!
Yes! One of my all time favorite anime for this very reason. Watched it at a really weird time in my life, because of this it hit me on a very personal level. Asuka was the first character in media that made me reflect on my own trauma because we are so similar in our experiences. I had never seen another character portray the trauma she had so spot on, none the less a FEMALE character. It was the first piece of media, that I felt completely attempted to speak to the viewer, and as someone who desperately needed to hear the messages it had to offer, it became even more special to me.
I would say so. I don't think it changed much about me, but it did leave a mark. Shinji, for better or worse, was a main character I could heavily relate to: self loathing, low self esteem, distrust of others, incapable of forming proper relationships due to how much of a mess I am... etc. All the other characters are very well crafted too and it was good to see a tsundere who had depth (although it is sad to see that very few characters in the "tsundere" stereotype have been able to emulate Asuka's writing quality over the years.)
The show started off very interesting, and then got more and more intricate, until it started touching me more deeply. The ending, and End of Evangelion hit me like a truck. I felt like a ghost when I went to my crappy summer job in the following days. My mind was a mix of static and thinking back on the show, thinking both about the fascinating plot and at the same time knowing it didn't matter, because it really was a show about people, the sci-fi was secondary.
It did make me feel like shit for a while, but it still was a great experience, and definitely changed my outlook on life in one way or another. I'm 5 rewatches in, and I don't think it will be left at that
The End of Evangelion hit me so well too. The whole Komm Susser Tod sequence, I was sobbing quietly. It was like someone finally understood me... took all of my feelings, thoughts, and emotions, and projected them onto the screen for not only others to see, but for myself to realize what was going in my head, heart, and soul...
Kaworu was also a harsh truth character for me, his talks with Shinji hit hard. And Shinji's confrontation with himself on the train in Episode 16, specifically, "You're afraid of the Shinji Ikari in others" hit me hard too.
The anime changed my perception in a lot of different things. I only watched it because a friend of mine said i would really like it ( i thought i would never like it), but i couldnt be happier to give it the chance it deserves. I'm glad i didnt watch it when i was a kid, because i think i would hate Shinji's personality but now i completely understand and resonate with all the cast in something. The anime is by far the best piece of fiction i've ever seen and i'm thankful it helped you and gave you a light at the end of the tunnel. Always Remember.
Anywhere Can Be A Paradise As Long As You Have The Will To Live." — Yui Ikari
Thanks for your reply. I'm happy it helped you as it helped me. And yes, that quote from Yui has also stayed with me a lot too. There are two quotes that really stuck with me in Evangelion:
"You're afraid of the Shinji Ikari inside others."
And the other is,
"No one understands me."
"You never understood anything."
"I thought this was supposed to be a world without pain, and without consistency."
"That's because you thought that everyone else felt the same as you do."